Andrew is my 11 year old. He happens to have a diagnosis of classic autism. Lately I find myself so distracted by his possible future. I know God is in control of what will happen and yet I can't seem to stop worrying! A friend of mine has a little girl the same age as Andrew. This little girl was the subject of Andrews first ever crush. Andrew talked about her all the time, saying how one day he would marry her. One day I ran into her mom in walmart and told her how sweet I thought this was. She responded telling me that she thought the same. Then, with nothing but good intentions, she said her daughter had asked if one day Andrew would ever be able to support her or support a family. Of course, I responded stating he could do anything he put his mind to! I have replayed her words a thousand times now. They have plagued me many, many nights for over a year now. I know the mom was not saying Andrew would never be able to support a family but it opened my mind to the possibility that he may not be able to have this dream! Andrew is very high functioning; however, there are certain set backs that he still struggles to overcome. I want to say I am confident that one day he will have his own family but in truth I am not! I feel awful that I doubt his ability to overcome! I feel like a bad mom for not having confidence in him! I know I have to face certain realities but who says that if we don't truly have faith that God will not make everyone of his dreams a possibility??? I know I need to fully give this to God! Praying for strength to let it go!
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